From paranoia to delusion,
to ill made choices
life changes made from a place
of psychological disintegration.
What now remains?
Face like thunder,
a storm waiting to break
the inertia of self-indulgence,
denial held and truth avoided.
Heart like flint,
sharp knapped edges,
shards piercing ever deeper
poised to destroy the essential self.
Soul like ash,
encased in ice unmelting,
frozen solid unable to blow free
for the phoenix of the self to be reborn.
Only these and my compassion,
and the remnants of my love.
Gray Bear in the Middle 